What if that wouldn't have happened..

Phew, my blog after an year almost. I wouldn't say much not much has changed. This is because I cant view my life as one big picture where a small change would go un-noticed. I would rather be it a collection of many small pictures. So, in between 25th December last year and today i've added a lot new pictures, a lot new memories.Of course, some good some bad. But i wouldn't want to throw away any of them. And As i sit here and think, i wouldn't want to go back in time and change any of my decision. I'm happy how things are for me right now and i cant think of any better satisfaction than that.

Now I'm mot saying that my life perfect as of this moment and I'm content with what i have but i guess I've learnt to make my peace with it. i'm quite sure some point in the future and in all probability in the near future I'll crib about something in my life but good and bad are just phases. Call me weird but in retrospection i tend to like it when bad things happen to me because they make me think that something good is going to come along. and that hope fuels me through those bad times.

I've never felt more spiritual. i have always called god as 'concept' - which had been propagated as per me by saints just to make humans realise that they are not the superior most beings in the universe. but some times some events take place that make u realise that there's more than just this concept. and what more is that these incidents change the course of your life.

I don't want to be the person who cannot own up to his decisions, good or bad. I want to take owner ship of life and not let situations take control of me. I don't want to say in the future that 'what if that wouldn't have happened to me'. Its because of those things that i would never have had the opportunity to meet such great people that I've. I would never have learnt stuff i always wanted to. and i would never have got an opportunity to start my life all over again.

I'm glad how the concept has conceptualized my life for me.